Ehek aku ni konon mcm tak nak menulis..tapi nak wat camner tangan aku gatal gak nak tulis. Hmm dlm aku ingat org tak baca blog aku ni rupe2nya ada gak..n’way dgn segala berbesar hati buat yg baca dan nak tinggalkan any comment, u r most welcomed!…kecil tapak tangan, nyiru aku tadahkan…jgn segan2..walaupun muka aku ni selalunya 1st impression org kata garang ler, hape ke..aku tak makan org tau..aku cuma makan makanan yg halal je tau…
N’way there are so many reasons why I must write..erk most probably lagi beberapa hari dh start super duper bz maka hari ni aku tulis ape yg terlintas dlm otak aku ni..
Within this month, ramai org yg aku deal/kenal dah hantar “love letter” aka akan berhijrah ke tempat baru…isk2 awatla sume pakat2 waktu2 ni ek? Korang sumer mmg janji2 atau ni “penyakit berjangkit” ? Sob2 sedeynya aku...but itu lumrahla kan? Masa aku gi program2 ACCA, speaker2 tu ada kata based on research, it’s normal to change jobs for 9 times before u reach 35 years old..yg lagi satu plak..u will have to change 12 times before u met ur dream/perfect job for urself…sejauh mana betul tu aku tak tahu…since its depends on ourself nak stay selamanya or move to other company….
Aku pun ada experience “berhijrah”...masa dapat offer tmpt keje skrg ni mcm2 dlm otak aku..serabut. walaupun at first place mmg nak move to gain other experiences, bila dh dpt rasa mcm tak tahu..blur la jugak…nak kena fikir mcm2 lagila plak masa tu aku dah dikira senior dlm group, gaji bagus, kawan2 pun best, keje pun best, bos best, company plak one of big four (and to be frank aku percaya DKC Tax is no 1 in M’sia…) pendek kata sumer best (disclaimer : walau bagaimanapun setiap tempat still ada pros & cons, best &takbest….yg xbest tu sdiri simpanlerkan ?)
Apa pun stlh berfikir semasaknya..aku accept my current job for my personal reasons...tapi yg pening once dh hantar surat, banyakler kena jawab soalan..nape berhenti? Offer gaji sana tinggi ker? Bla2…n the most worst thing org ingat aku berhenti sbb heart broken sgt2…(mmgler masa tu aku baru je lps break off), but to be truth aku tak kan berhenti kerja hanya kerana patah hati!
Yg paling aku risau masa nak berhijrah ialah nak jumpa big2 boss..Alhamdulillah, sume ok..even bila fikir balik rasa kelakar pun ada…masa masuk bilik ED, dia senyum je tgk aku pegang envelope..terus dia kata..”I bagi u resign if u nak kawin”…uhuks, tersedak aku…but dlm pada tu dia still suh aku fikir balik…isk2 masa tu dlm otak dah rasa 50-50…tapi stlh +,-,x, / maka aku rasa surat yg aku bagi tu muktamad…("Ini takdir Tuhan, Boss", erm boss aku suka kata bila aku jumpa dia untk urgent + last minute case dulu)
Time jumpa partner untk dpt testimonial plak, dia kata klu rasa nak patah balik, u r most welcomed (actually ada sekretari kata, susah nak dpt kata2 azimat mcm tu…hmm maybe kiranya aku ni pernah jd asset berharga co la kot )
N’way petua # 1 untk hantar “love letter” ialah hantar hari Jumaat…selain sbb Jumaat tu penghulu segala hari, ia juga adalah untk psycho..yelah hantar hari Jumaat at least boss bising waktu tu je pastu weekends dia dah wat benda lain..so most probaby dia akan lupa dan tak kan drag mood dia untk seminggu (korang paham ker?)
OK..move to next topic…cantik…Maybe sbb ada yg xcaye tgk gambar aku yg dah mcm “celebrity look” ..
Gambar tu mmg gambar aku setelah makeover…dgn bantuan amoi yg makeup, abg fotographer yg berkali2 bagi instruction untk posing, not to forget my charm, dan teknologi touch up maka terhasilla gambar yg sebegitu…tak kuasa aku nak pi plastik surgery, botox dan apa2 lagi…
Alah klu tgk contoh terdekat, masa kawan2 korang kahwin, esp pengantin perempuan…klu yg biasa xmake up, masa jd pengantin mesti nmpk lain kan?…sbb dh kena touch up, dan seri pengantin psl tu le nmpk berseri2, cantik dbs…tak gitu…?
Apapun aku percaya kecantikan dalaman lebih penting dr kecantikan luaran…akhlak pekerti, sopan santun, budi bahasa lebih penting dr kecantikan luaran..kecantikan luaran ni terlalu subjektif bergantung kepada setiap individu.
Kalau diamati doa tengok cermin “Ya Allah sebgaimana engkau telah memperindah kejadianku, maka perindah akhlakku”. Nah, bukankah bermaksud setiap dr kita adalah cantik, dan kita berdoa agar Dia memperelokkan akhlak kita…lagipun akhlak yg indah akan lebih diingati drpd kecantikan luaran yg tak bersifat kekal (umur bertambah, kedut2 pun bertambah…xgitu?)
Okla dah banyak pulak menceceh….aku pun ada banyak benda kena buat..esok malam ada kelas, satu hape revision pun xwat lagi..
p/s: lagi satu buat yg selalu baca blog aku ni minta maaf ler klu korang tak suka aku buh mcm2 kaler..nak wat camne ek..."life is colourful"
19/06/07 Whom I Want to Meet, Orange, Pengyou
Dunno what to write..but bila tgk profile adik aku buat aku rasa nak tulis who I want to meet…
Quote from my-zana (adik aku ler tuh) “sape yg aq nk jmpa? baik aq bg tau sape yg aq dh jmpa.family,fens,pak lah,rais yatim,ct nurhaliza,a samad said, angelina tan,model sunsilk n her dr husband,dj dave,rahimah rahim,h m tuah iskandar,anita mohd(model),rosyam nor,shuhaimi baba,kavita kaur,fahrin ahmad,u-wei shaari...so skang ni aq nk sgt jmpa maya karin(mata berhantumu mengganggu lenaku) n david caruso (yg jd caine horatio dlm csi miami)”
Aku dah jumpa gak nak almost list adik aku…maklumlah aku pun xtau tuah sape sebenonyer almost everytime aku dan adik aku keluar jalan2 musti jumpa somebody yg glamer kat M’sia nih…(ude, ko dah balik jb…stkt aku kuar ngan housemate aku tak jumpa sape2la yg baru..so ko mmg bertuahla kiranya dlm idup aku ni kot? Ke aku yg memberi sinar ketuahan sbb aku yg sokmo plan nak gi situla sanala…?)
So aku update list aku sekali (until this date) Pak Lah, Rais Yatim, CT Nurhaliza, Waheeda, A Samad Said, Model sunsilk n her husband, DJ Dave, Rahimah Rahim, Rosyam Noor, Kavita Kaur, Fahrin Ahmad, Aidiel Ghafar, Misha Omar, Sheila Rusly & Jenggo, Shajiry, Adi Putra, Ziana Zain…tu je kot…lelain tak ingat
Klu adik aku nak jumpa Maya and Mr H (Horatio) aku plak nak jumpa sape ek? Kalau dr golongan yg glamer aku nak jumpa pakwe aku yg no 1 masa zaman2 uni dulu..tak lain tak bukan Yutaka Takenouchi…skang ni nak kata minat pun, tak minat pun tidak..kira kegilaanku dah jadi neutral la kot…pakwe kegilaan zaman form 4-5 plak leonardo di caprio…ni pun dh jadi neutral jugak..erk sume yg jambu2..nak wat camner..
Kalau dr segi biasa2 aku nak jumpa kawan2 sekolah dr zaman tadika sampaila masa ACCA…ramai tuh actually…lagi aku nak jumpa my other half (yg ni aku xtau aku dah jumpa ke idak, tapi klu dah jumpa aku doakan Tuhan akan buka hatinya untukku sebagaimana dibukakan hatiku untuknya..chewah2… Opss ada yg aku nak jumpa pakwe korea plak…huhu hero citer My Girl & I …yg jadi Seol Gong Chan (Lee Dong Wook), sbb aku nak jumpa dia sbb akulah Yoo Rin (huhu walau pun aku xde iras Yoo Rin tapi bila kat umah housemate aku sometimes panggil Yoo Rin tau…)…lagi sape ek? Hmm maybe wardina and anuar zain kot…
Nanti bila aku aku jumpa lagi org glamer aku update lagi list since so far time terjumpa ni aku tak bawa kamera plus telefon canggih aku on d way (isk2 plan aku asik lari jek, bila leh beli hp baru ni ek?)
N’way today is “orange day”..so called orange since everybody in the company wearing orange t-shirt..at first I though tak best betul..but after seeing more people I feel so sunshine (maybe you don’t know what I mean)…masa datang kerja tak nampak happening lagi, but when pi breakfast, lif terbuka je terus nampak ramai yg bergelar “mr and ms orange” =)
The best part is when I entered the lift, unidentified person asked me “Is there any tresure hunt? U seems like hunting for something with that orange t-shirt? N’way its nice to see a group of you wearing that colour” Ha ha…macam tu ker? Suddenly teringat Sabtu lepas lepak kat mamak Bangsar for breakfast with K.Aye, Sofi, n Farah, a group of people wearing orange t-shirt for treasure hunt…erk seems that orange is fun….
Erk ape lagi nak tulis ye..ni shi wode pengyou ( u r my friend)….hehe aku dah bergelar pelajar balik (untk part time dan sementara waktu)…tak tahu nape tapi aku rasa aku mmg suka belajar, walaupun mood untk start enjin student ni agak slow but since neighbour sblh aku kat ofis ni pun start jadi part time CIMA student aku pun terasa tempiasnya (erk aku bukan amik CIMA, but attend a class, OK)…walaupun agak tension sbb sumer classmate aku tu satu bangsa jek, tapi tak pe Chaiyok ! U can do it!
24/05/07 Birthday time
Salam...watzup watzup...ngeh2 pejam celik rupanya aku dah masuk 26 tahun...kejap jek rasanya...
N'way if a lot of people countdown untuk tgk pirates of the caribbean 3..aku plak countdown untk birthday...hmm sounds that 24th May was so special?
A lot of things happened within my "birthday fever"...and first of all, I believe a lot of friends has seen my transformation from very simple n plain girl (some even said that I have very kampung look, even ustazah sekolah rendah..and watsoever)...to become a celebrity look...waduh2 sehingga ramai ngak percaya sih itu rupaku...hehe rileks la bro n sis...it's just a matter of technology and the most important things is my charm....:p
Buat yg xpercaya gambar yg nmpk cun tu mmg gambar aku..ni sume kes housemate aku suh pi makeover...n'way thanks a lot to K.She, K.Noor and Sofi to give me such a wonderful experience (but ada gak terseksa esp bila makeup person tu tenyeh segala benda kat mata dan camera man tu suh posing...) but bila tengok hasilnya aku pun mcm tak caya...I shall say this is the best birthday gift :)
Tak lupa gak aku nak ucapkan thanks a lot buat yg wish hari ke"tua"an ku...thanks for remembering me in ur life...tak kisahle korang wish advance, on time or belated...it's mean a lot for me....dan rasanya buat pertama kali dlm masa setahun handphone aku yg asyik tahap silent mode (w/pun aku set biasa je) tak berhenti2 dgn msg....Besides that, paling aku tak sangka ada kek untk aku ..thanks a lot for my team members...it's really touching (sorry ya aku ni mmg manusia yg a bit sensitif..)
Birthday wish? Hmm hopefully I'm always sweet 16 :) of course banyakler wish...n I'm not to list it here as I believe I want to keep it on my mind...but sometimes rasanya terlalu banyak wish to the extend that I cannot prioritise which should I do first..sounds so terrible...maybe I'm afraid to plan to much or rather that I should have a full list of backup in case if I cannot get what I want...
My comment for +1 year older...satu usia yg dah sesuai untk kahwin...hehehe isu ni aku malas nak komen, let Allah tentukan setelah segala usaha dan doa...tak tahule sometimes I think I become a bit more fussy to choose my companion, but really dunno how and what to do...aku pun tak tahu aku ni kategori mencari cinta atau lari dari cinta...Apapun skrg aku baru start baca buku "Tentang Cinta" tulisan Pahrol Mohd Juoi...dan katanya buat yg pernah frust bercinta, buku ini menawarkan ubatnya, Insya Allah..
Besides that, its already a year since break off with Mr X...which I though he will be my Mr Right...I cannot rate the percentage of my recovery but somehow I believe God know what and deep inside my heart...whatever it is " let bygone be bygone"
Sometimes looking back to the past makes me felt grateful...semakin banyak kita lalui jln berliku, aku percaya kita semakin matang dan dewasa...tak semua org mgkn pernah rasa peritnya putus cinta...dan semestinya apa yg berlaku pasti ada hikmah drpdNya walaupun kita tidak akn tahu kesemuanya..
:( Due some restriction, maybe I cannot actively write to my blog (but this is not the last entry).....its just I have big commitment (of course with my job, time restriction and other reasons). I really enjoy become blogger (althogh I am not the successful one)..tengoklah mcm mana ye....
N'way I have seen Pirates of the Caribbean 3...and paling teruk aku tak pernah tgk sekuel citer ni yg no 1 & 2...a bit blur jugaklah masa mula2....but after all it's nice to watch d movie and I really like when Will Tuner asked Elizabeth Swann to marry him...yg lelain pun best gak...opss not to say that aku rela org propose aku mcm apa yg Will buat w/pun org tu sehandsome Orlando Bloom...
Hmm anyway, sape2 yg nak buat revision Pirates of Caribbean1 & 2 don't forget to invite me ya? Maybe I can borrow the VCDs or join together..the more the merrier ....
Ciou...
03/04/07 March, April, May….2007
Well seems that it has been a long time time that I do not write to my blog…hmm maybe due to hectic and tight schedule that I have…(isk2 betul ker?..)
Hmm a lot of things happened and I still do not believe that we are already in April …so fast time flies away…
March is the most and super duper thigh schedule that I have….dahle selalu balik rumah lambat, weekand plak asyik tak de kat rumah….hehe at this moment I really want to pamper myself, but how ya..pergi spa ke? Isk2 dr zaman dulu je berangan tp tak pernah2 pun pi..pdhal kat ofis lama dulu berlambak2 pusat kecantikan (spa, slimming centre, etc)
Well before terbabas, terlajak melalut I shall start write main point that happened in this March….and also upcoming event including a few reminder for myself (sound so bz ler)
Overall this month paling banyak “Jejak Kasih” …dan banyak kenduri kahwin..jumpa kawan2 lama dr zaman sekolah…dbs
Overall this month paling banyak “Jejak Kasih” …dan banyak kenduri kahwin..jumpa kawan2 lama dr zaman sekolah…dbs
March
10th March – Genting for first time with 3 other classmates masa kat MRSM Muar….enjoy giler.. and the most important thing mula2 aku tak mau main benda2 yg mencabar diriku..but ends up aku main gak corkscrew, space shooter….erk rasa takut sgt2 mcm masuk fear factor pun ada…
11th March – hari ni sempat gi snow world aje..spend about 20 minutes…hehe teringat plak citer winter sonata…paling lawak kitaorg la yg kiasu amik gambar and at the end masa kat kaunter gambar jadi rambang mata xtau nak pilih yg ne 18th March – pi housewarming kawan masa MRSM jugak kat Puchong…makan2, borak2 and balik drpd tu kami bertiga ke Sunway Pyramid. Sempat minum2 kat Coffee Bean (erk bukan selalu tau aku pi minum gaya bangsawan tu, lagipun aku ni selalu akan tercangak2 dpn kaunter xtau nak pilih pe….) paling best dpt free gift ala2 mcm keychain but boleh lap skrin hanphone…
24th March – ada 2 kenduri kahwin..nasib baik kat kajang ngan bangi jek..yg kajang tu senior bilik kawan aku..erm senior aku gak.cuma aku kenal gitu2 jelah..yg kat bangi kawan masa kat muar…dah lama giler tak jumpa almost 10 years…mmg best mengimbau zaman2 sekolah…
25th March – pi kenduri kat Ipoh..classmate masa kat ITM…nampak ex bf ngan wife dia…aku rasa kosong jek tengok dia…maybe sedih tu dah ilang and maybe I’m already recovered …ntah bila ingat2 balik yg dia kononya nak jaga persahabatan la, bla2 but at the end masa kat kenduri tu tak tegur aku pun lansung..well its up to him but for me frankly speaking nak jadi kawan mahupun musuh amat susah sekali..then ntah tak tau apa status yg penting hanyalah saudara sesama Islam…tak gitu?
30th March – Skybridge KLCC + Long Q for ticket + free + 10 min + level 41 + 10.45 am last year pd tarikh yg sama mcm ni aku bz berlari ke plaza ampang city untk dptkan sign dr director..client la, pastu balik ofis kejar manager dan director sign..and kejar untk despatch hantar form E…( tu belum citer part prepare spreadsheet yg panjang giler with all those expat name..kalau nak nama2 canggih aku leh bagi nama advance gitu mcm derrick vincent, samuel, gerard, marcelino candia..)
30th March – Skybridge KLCC + Long Q for ticket + free + 10 min + level 41 + 10.45 am last year pd tarikh yg sama mcm ni aku bz berlari ke plaza ampang city untk dptkan sign dr director..client la, pastu balik ofis kejar manager dan director sign..and kejar untk despatch hantar form E…( tu belum citer part prepare spreadsheet yg panjang giler with all those expat name..kalau nak nama2 canggih aku leh bagi nama advance gitu mcm derrick vincent, samuel, gerard, marcelino candia..)
this year pula aku berada di tingkat 41 selama 10min menikmati pemandangan dr skybridge klcc ….best tau..Although at first, planning pi sorang2 but at the end pi kawan ofismate+ anak dia…well klu pi sorg pun tak salah kan? Yelah takde sape nak temankan plus housemate aku sumer keje… lps tu tgk mr bean..actually last time tgk movie pun citer Cinta…lps tu asyik la rasa nak tgk mcm2 citer but end up tak pun tgk…well upcoming list banyak giler tapi ntahle pi tgk ke tak..list berderet2 nak tgk sumolah, shrek 3, tmnt (ninja turtle …citer paling glamer masa kecik2 dulu)
31st March – kenduri kahwin kat ipoh..kawan ofismate lama…chinese yg join pi 1st time g kenduri melayu so tanya mcm2 soalan…erk selain tu bila org single p kenduri mesti kena soalan cepu emas bila lagi turn diri sendiri..apa lagi jawapan yg asyik ku ulang dr hari tu sy tgh cari calon tapi tak tahu le….kalau ikut mmg dh tahap wajib but still tak muncul lagi kot my mr right, my other half, my....myvi...kekeke
mlm tgk tv cari menantu, isk2 lagi la rasa nak kahwin…erk tapi nak cari kat mana ek? ada org kata cari jek kat ofis, tp ntahle…nak hantar resume kat ne ek? isk2 payah plak rasa..tu le ptt zaman dulu2 pasang banyak2 at least ada backup plan…hehe tapi aku bkn jenis playgirl even masa nak bercinta dulu pun lembab…almaklumlah masa tu aku nak concentrate balajar dan dptkan result bagus
April
Another quarter repoting, dateline untk 2 survey dan paling penting 12-15 ni aku balik kampung jumpa family…hehe miss them soo much dah lama tak balik since cuti raya cina…. Dateline untuk online training gak, lagi the most important thing this month must do e-filing for my personal tax…untk pembayar2 cukai di luar sana, dan juga even yg tax overpaid/ repayable jgn lupa hantar form BE masing2….masa ni lah aku rasa bangga sgt sbb aku pernah keje kat DKC dan pernah diexpose tax return bkn stkt untk co bahkan untk individu….untk org yg xsure about tax ni ape lagi boleh check ngan LHDN website…(and also I’m willing to help kawan2 yg nak refer kat aku ni….well, sharing is caring…kekeke)
May
24th May – Eric cantona’s birthday + pirates of the caribbean 3 + the most important thing is my birthday…
28th May –
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all ur mistakes
There’s nothing I wanna do to hear ur voice again
I’m sorry for blaming u for everything…
Would u tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me undersand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are u proud of who I am?
There’s nothing I want to do
To have just one more chance
To look into ur eyes and see you looking back
Happy 1st Break Off Anniversary for Mr A….erk kejam ke bunyi nyer…well by that time genap setahun peristiwa penting buat aku dan Mr A…past is the past. Finish and fullstop… I ‘m looking forward to find my other half…how? When? where? Sumer tu aku tak ada jawapan kerana yg pastu rezeki, jodoh dan ajal maut tu kuasa Tuhan…kita hanya mampu merancang, berusaha, dan memohon yg terbaik drpd pengetahuanNya… Erk…its quite true untk dpatkan yg terbaik itu bkn mudah tapi kena percaya jln2 kesukaran yg dilalui itu akan membuahkan hasil yg terbaik…
29th May – masa tarikh ni tahun lepas aku dtg interview kat co yg skrg ni aku keje…interview dlm keadaan “panda eye”….mata dah le bengkak, hati bengkak tapi Alhamdulillah jawapan aku tak le bengkak….jawap mesti jawap dgn sepenuh hati….bila diingat balik adakalanya Tuhan memberi kita satu kesusahan, kesakitan tapi dalam masa yg sama dia juga memberikan penawar yg mgkn tidak terhingga, sehingga adakalanya kita lupa dan lalai sehinggalah kita diuji….dan yg pasti Allah tidak akan membebankan apa yg tidak mampu dibebani oleh hambaNya kerana Dia Maha Adil. June Genting again but this time with my lovely sis…. spent 2 days and 1 night…and another thing aku dh janji nak pi skybridge klcc lagi ngan dia….. Okla need to pen off….kena buat kerja plak …take care n have a nice day ahead!
